Gratitude Despite Delayed Dreams (And Pretty Much Nothing Going My Way)…

what is in your hands

We all go through mountain times – the high and happy times – and the dark valley times – the I don’t know if I’m going to make it through this one, God, times.

It’s been a rough year with my health and finances, but I’m not homeless, my son is with me, and we are okay. Gratitude. And I know God is with us through this valley time. He’s been faithful to bring me and my son through other hard times, even dangerous ones.

With this NEW reality, new beginning even, as a result of fibromyalgia, inflammatory arthritis, and IBS (Lord, I just want to eat regular food sometimes, please) I had to take inventory of what I have in my hands that God CAN use. Hmm.

“Then the LORD said to him, “What is that in your hand?” “A staff,” he replied.” (Exodus 4:2) God took what was in Moses’s hand, a stick really, and he used it to meet his needs.

Words. I have words. My writing and a wealth of wisdom and character gained from going through those hard times. Being humbled opens eyes, creates in us a tender heart of mercy and grace towards others.

Words. I have words, God. You made me good with words. Now what?

My hands don’t always work very well, but in these times, I have access to speech recognition software. Thank You, God for allowing me to be born during a time in history with this type of technology. Gratitude.

Today, though my many attempts at earning income to provide for my little family over the past several few weeks has resulted in roughly $7.00, my heart is so welled up with gratitude because I remember all the times I’ve been here before and made it through unscathed despite how bad it was.

Things. I lost things, but I didn’t lose my family. I know better times are coming. I know things will change for us. They always have.

This little slice in time that we are going through now is not outside of God’s care. He’s in it with us. He’s working behind the scenes. Orchestrating the usual right on time help that will cause me to step back with awe when I see it and simply say, Thank You.

Thank you, God, I surrender everything. Even my love of words. Show me what You’d have me do. Let Your peace lead me. The thing I have in my hands that You can use to meet our needs and to be a help to others.

I’m going to keep plugging away. Doing my part and believe my time spent won’t be in vain but will be fruitful for my little bunch. That God will meet me where I’m at and meet our needs.


“My steps are ordered by the Lord.” (Psalm 37:23).

“The Lord will guide me continually.” (Isaiah 58:11)

“You will have plenty to eat and be satisfied And praise the name of the LORD your God, Who has dealt wondrously with you; Then My people will never be put to shame.” (Joel 2:26)

“And my God will supply every need.” (Philippians 4:19).

I love You, Lord.


2 Replies to “Gratitude Despite Delayed Dreams (And Pretty Much Nothing Going My Way)…”

    1. Gosh. It’s not easy at all, but anxiety really gets to my health in profound ways. I always remind myself of all the times I’ve fretted myself into depression when God showed up on time every time. I pray (talk to God) a ton and keep releasing things back. 🙂

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