So I’m at community acupuncture the other day- a great way to get the benefits of acupuncture at a more affordable price when suddenly, out of nowhere, tears began to relentlessly flow down my cheeks. A soft gentle sob ensued and refused to go away for the remainder of the hour long session.
Fortunately, no on could hear my blubbering self nor the sound of me sucking my snot back into my nose because. No tissues. Needles all over my body. Afraid to move. Acupuncturist went bye bye so we could have our time of relaxation and clearing our minds.
At first I was a little embarrassed. Figures. Me the weird one. The oddball. The one all the strange stuff always happens to. Then I was like who gives a flip. This feels wonderful. If you’ve ever had a good healing, cleansing type of cry, ah, this was one of those times. Besides dude two rows over fell asleep thirty seconds into the session and snored so loudly no one could hear me anyway.
I went in to get treatment for fibromyalgia, inflammatory arthritis, IBS, and PTSD. Studies are revealing more and more that for many there’s a link between trauma and the development of these type of conditions as well as a link between the gut and the brain. Emotions affect digestive health and digestive health affects emotional health. I could go on and on because this type of scientific geeky stuff fascinates me but I won’t.
Anyhow, back to the boo-hoo meltdown on the acupuncture chair. So the door opens, and I’m a ‘nose and lips swell up’, blotchy crier. The doc comes over to start pulling out needles, and I blurt out, “Um, I cried the entire freaking time. Is that normal? Must me the PTSD, abuse, emotional trauma stuff.”
Turns out, I wasn’t a freak acupuncture case. She said it’s totally normal to cry, even the entire time, during acupuncture. See, says it right here. I googled it later that day of course.
I will return for some more needle love in the near future, and if I cry, I cry because something good was happening inside my needs much healing self.
My body didn’t end up in this mess no reason. It was an added bonus, the gift that kept on giving, from the abusers in my life, from toxic family members who almost destroyed me.
Dear one, if you have people in your life that are causing you physical or emotional harm. Your body will pay in every way, shape, and form. Maybe not right now, but someday. The you right now and your future health are worth more than that.
Seriously, run as fast as you can away from toxic people, family included – they can be the worst actually, abuse with guilt.
Hedge out those who stifle and judge you for being you, those toxic unsafe, unstable, unpredictable, irrational ones who are so legalistic they can’t accept anyone who is different or does things differently than they do and are sure to point out everything you’re doing wrong in their eyes.
Those who deal out the consequences of judgmental words and the slander of your name among your family and friends if you express an opinion that doesn’t line up with theirs, consequences that may even include threat of harm. But with or without the threat. Flee from their presence. Flee from those in whose sight nothing you say or do could ever be right or meet their twisted approval and non-human standards.
“Get out! Get out and leave your captivity.” Isaiah 52:11
My health has improved tremendously from cutting out the toxic relationships from my life, close relatives included. Forgive but move on so you can heal and allow enough time to pass for you to begin to forget.
“You will surely forget your trouble, recalling it only as waters gone by.” Job 11:16
And if you find yourself seeking out acupuncture and have emotions that need healing, bring a tissue or three or ten. 🙂
Psalm 120:1-2, 6-7
I call on the Lord in my distress,
and He answers me.
Save me, Lord,
from lying lips
and from deceitful tongues...
Too long have I lived
among those who hate peace.
I am for peace;
but when I speak, they are for war.
I say again, hedge them out of your life, precious one.